Money and Means (Mr. Hyde)

So right now things are looking good for Morocco (kind of). On Thursday I'm supposed to present to a couple of committees for walkabout funding. I hope that my travel expenses might be funded. I'm worried that this walkabout might be beyond my families means. My mom and I have this unspoken "don't talk about money thing" so naturally she hasn't talked to me about funding this walkabout that she's encouraged me to take. So now I have to badger her into talking to me about money and means.
I talked to my dad about my proposed walkabout and learned that he strongly opposes me going to Morocco. He wants me to stay with what's familiar and go to St. Croix. I lost my patients with him and ended the conversation by shouting, " Walkabout is the reason I stayed at the Graham School, it's the reason I stuck it out and now you want me to stay with what's familiar? I've been looking forward to a walkabout like this since I first toured Graham and learned what walkabout is." Then it was quiet and I felt ashamed of myself (but didn't apologize). Yes, a kick ass Walkabout was the reason I chose The Graham School but as time wore on I found other reasons to stay. He keeps on saying (and has said since he first learned about walkabout) that any money I would be spending would be better used towards college. Well first off, the cost of my walkabout isn't going to even put a chip in my college expenses and secondly don't talk to me about college expenses, you who doesn't feel motivated to help me with that in the slightest. I hate this, let's change the subject...

(I don't want this negativity to spoil the rest of my journal so I'm going to write a separate one for the good things that happened today)